I don't know i edited this picture , but it seems cool . ♥
Anyway , it's currently 9.54am and i was awake since 8 in the morning .
I'm munching on my nuts while waiting for time to pass by effortlessly .
I just called Ezma Illia and i suppose we have a date today at 1pm .

I miss a lot of people , and the list just keeps on going .
I rarely met up with anyone for the past few days .
Just one or two individuals , and that's about it .
And i wonder why people are being so selfish and unpredictable nowadays .
Whatmore heartless .
Is it in the nature of human beings to change and be cruel towards someone
who have made a mistake , twice maybe ?
Please let there be a quote saying third chances .
I just miss the person who has been there for me all this while .
And i didn't treasure him , since i've made a mistake that disappointed him a lot .
I just hope that he have already forgiven me .
I'm not asking for that friendship back .
But remember this , i will always love you my friend .

People always leave you behind ,
be it you best friend , close friend , sisterlove , members .
Because they will always find out something wrong about you in time to come .
They will give up on you , and things will start to chance drastically .
As much as i want them in my life , i got used to being left behind .
All i can say is , i'm tired of being too nice to people , and chasing them all over .
Tired of doing anything i can , as to beg them to stay .
Some are my own faults , but mostly , hard circumstances .

Problems are piling up , and i'm balancing myself to stand on both my feets .
If i topple over , then it's all said and done .
I'll either leave this world or just be insane .

And boy , I don't want to hurt you any further .
You told me yourself that you wanted us to be close friends ,
and i've already accepted that fact , BOLD and CLEARLY .
I'm already contented on the friendship that we're sharing now .
And believe me , throwing yourself into a relationship with me is the last thing
that you would ever want to do in your life .
Please don't make things awkward .
To tell you the truth , i've given my heart to someone in particular .
He never had the clue that i had fallen for him ,
and i'll let it be that way , until God permits me to be with him .
I'm the type of person that believes in fate . So yeahh , i'll love him no matter what .
I thought you were a close friend to me , and i wanted to share about
this guy that i'm in love with .
But knowing that you're having this feelings towards me ,
you just make everything go nuts .
Please my dear , don't make things difficult for me .
I'm proud enough to be your friend , because you're a great person to be with .
I don't want to loose you as a friend , not anymore .

Haishh , why must everyone torment me with any tiny aspects that they
can bring up , and just pull me down .
Nevertheless , i'm lucky enough to have a Mother that will always be there to lend
me her ears , and to at least take some of my burden and willingly share it with me .
I know God is fair , but please make it more balanced , because mine is not .
There's more pain than happiness .
And i hope that my mom will be blessed with longevity in life ,
because now , all i can say is
I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT HER BY MY SIDE .