Currently 6.50am and i just got back from North Plaza R.O.C

Well , went to meet Zai there just to keep things updated .

Let's recall about my day previously .

Woke up in the afternoon and slacked at home till 8pm , well around there .

Called up Jeremiah and planned to meet at that time , and of course i was late .

Slacked with Icah , Danny , Riko , Jeremiah , Kambing , Mabok , Riko , Epul , Ahken , Dino

Rabiatul , Huzair , Haikal , Talib , Aim , Nitro . But it was all only for a while .

CID and police officers are really into their patrolling duties , so we decided to get out of trouble and just split up . It was just too unreasonable for me .

At around 10pm , it ended up with only Talib and Jeremiah and myself .

We headed to Man Fut Tong soccer court and slacked .

Neo appeared few minutes later .

Then he went home and the three of us proceeded to block 755 basketball court .

Unknowingly , we saw a rather sick in the brain girl sitting on her own at a nearby pondok .

She was wearing a white colored pyjamas and was holding on to her handphone .

She blasted her songs and danced to the music .

She even talked to the basketball pole .

A stressed girl , or maybe escaped from IMH ? I have no freaking idea . *laughs*

Then Talib had to leave .

Jeremiah and i called up Faris and we then slacked at his crib , more safer than outside .

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When Faris and Jeremiah was asleep at the crib , i decided to leave ,

since KechyqSanchi was already under the block waiting for me .

Slacked with him and his friends till i got back home .

Well , life has been a bore , and to think of it , i prefer ending it .

Suffocation , that's the only word that can describe my life now .

Good morning bloggers .

It's currently 10.26am and i'm still not asleep yet . hahaha .

Now hanging out with my friends at my friend's crib .

I'm deciding to spend most of my time with my loved ones before i leave to somewhere .

Will update soon okay ?

But literally , i hope nothing unwanted happens .

I just don't want to leave my family , especially my mother .

Haishh , it's utterly depressing to even think about it .

And Jeremiah ,

thank you for being there throughout my ups and downs .

U have been there when i needed you , when everyone else simply ignored me .

You are still willing to be my friend even though i've made a mistake , and you know what .

We've been friends for four years now , and i hope it will continue further .

I regret for being such a selfish friend before , for criticising you and ignoring you .

I just realised what friends really are .

I love you Jeremiah Benjamin Matthews , as a friend okay ? hahahahahaha .

I have nothing else to update .

Takecare my wonderful friends .

Good Morning People .

It's currently 6.15am and finally my body is fully charged after 3 days of not sleeping .

And i'm just waiting for my manager to call me so that i can start work already .

But i don't know if i want to work there or not .

Haishh , nevermind . Let's think about that later shall we ?

It's been a long time since i met my girlfriends , since i've only been seeing Dinah and Rabiatul .

It's been a great week though .

And yesterday was an interesting day with Apit , Jeremiah and the rest .

Haha , can't elaborate here also .

Seriously , i don't know what to update already . Macam no life gituk .

Korang kalau nak jumpe aku , kol rumah jek la . Korang tau aku takde hp kan ?

Don't expect me to call everytime .

And if my mother ckp im sleeping , it's just because i close the door .

Say to my mum that mar suroh kejot .

Kalau tak forever la my mum ckp aku tido . hahaha .

Leceh , i know . ♥

Kepale aku ngah trip rabak uhhh .

Denga suare tibe2 padahal takde suare .

Nampak orang jalan at last takde orang in the first place pon .

And i heard mummy talking to me , i turned around , no one's there .

Haishh , and now there's monkey sounds drumming in my ears !

What is wrong with me ????

Featuring Safiah and Darlene .

Picture taken during our grandlink outing .

Well , currently it's 10.34am and i'm at Dinah's crib .

Just finished watching the show Om Shanti Om .

Didn't know that the catchy song belonged to a rather tragic story .

What an irony i suggest ?

Been coughing a lot these days .

But nevermind that ,

I'm contented with myself for holding a good record while under my 6 months counselling .

Insyaallah , everything will end in two months time , and i can't wait for that .

Not to mention , Dinah is snoring like a pig ! ♥ *laughs*

Me and Zuffrie planned to hangout today , and i should call him in like 2 hours time .

It's been a long time right Zuffrie ? We'll keep life updated later . haha .

Seriously , i don't know what to post anymore .

I'm clueless , effing clueless .

But maybe i should end this post and dedicate this to all my friends who are

facing minor or major or any problems in relationship terms .

Be strong , cause you've got a long way to go my dears .

God chose you guys to face this , as a challenge to prove that you're strong .

I've went through my rocky road , and mind me , the word easy doesn't exist .

Pray hard and believe in fate . Help will arrive , it's how you bring everything together .

What matters is a sincere and pure heart , and that leads to true love .

You guys are just so cruel .
I know i'm not an angel , but that doesn't mean that i need to be the one
getting all the blame .
I'm not in my good state of health , so pray for my death okay ?
I won't be living for long also .
Thanks you guys , you all are speeding up my death process .
Stress me more .
Because this stress made me have no mood to take any of my medications .
♥

I don't know i edited this picture , but it seems cool . ♥
Anyway , it's currently 9.54am and i was awake since 8 in the morning .
I'm munching on my nuts while waiting for time to pass by effortlessly .
I just called Ezma Illia and i suppose we have a date today at 1pm .

I miss a lot of people , and the list just keeps on going .
I rarely met up with anyone for the past few days .
Just one or two individuals , and that's about it .
And i wonder why people are being so selfish and unpredictable nowadays .
Whatmore heartless .
Is it in the nature of human beings to change and be cruel towards someone
who have made a mistake , twice maybe ?
Please let there be a quote saying third chances .
I just miss the person who has been there for me all this while .
And i didn't treasure him , since i've made a mistake that disappointed him a lot .
I just hope that he have already forgiven me .
I'm not asking for that friendship back .
But remember this , i will always love you my friend .

People always leave you behind ,
be it you best friend , close friend , sisterlove , members .
Because they will always find out something wrong about you in time to come .
They will give up on you , and things will start to chance drastically .
As much as i want them in my life , i got used to being left behind .
All i can say is , i'm tired of being too nice to people , and chasing them all over .
Tired of doing anything i can , as to beg them to stay .
Some are my own faults , but mostly , hard circumstances .

Problems are piling up , and i'm balancing myself to stand on both my feets .
If i topple over , then it's all said and done .
I'll either leave this world or just be insane .

And boy , I don't want to hurt you any further .
You told me yourself that you wanted us to be close friends ,
and i've already accepted that fact , BOLD and CLEARLY .
I'm already contented on the friendship that we're sharing now .
And believe me , throwing yourself into a relationship with me is the last thing
that you would ever want to do in your life .
Please don't make things awkward .
To tell you the truth , i've given my heart to someone in particular .
He never had the clue that i had fallen for him ,
and i'll let it be that way , until God permits me to be with him .
I'm the type of person that believes in fate . So yeahh , i'll love him no matter what .
I thought you were a close friend to me , and i wanted to share about
this guy that i'm in love with .
But knowing that you're having this feelings towards me ,
you just make everything go nuts .
Please my dear , don't make things difficult for me .
I'm proud enough to be your friend , because you're a great person to be with .
I don't want to loose you as a friend , not anymore .

Haishh , why must everyone torment me with any tiny aspects that they
can bring up , and just pull me down .
Nevertheless , i'm lucky enough to have a Mother that will always be there to lend
me her ears , and to at least take some of my burden and willingly share it with me .
I know God is fair , but please make it more balanced , because mine is not .
There's more pain than happiness .
And i hope that my mom will be blessed with longevity in life ,
because now , all i can say is
I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT HER BY MY SIDE .