Currently 11.27pm and I just got back home from 832 .

Planned to hangout till the next day but I guess it's cancelled .

I'm in a fatigue state of body and mind .

And i'm in the midst of throwing up .

I don't feel good , and I sense that my period is coming . LOL .

Even though things didn't turn out the way it was supposed to be ,

i'm joyful enough to heave a sigh of relief .

Things are back to normal with my dearest Dinah .

It's just a matter of us meeting each other and talk things out ,

and of course , apologize .

But Dinah , i'm sorry that I can't spend the night with you today .

If I did , it would be only the two of us . And there will be no one to so called protect us .

Sorry babe , but I promise you that this Thursday's plan with Darlene and Rabiatul

will be an awesome one . ♥

There's still uncountable thoughts lingering inside my brain cells .

I couldn't quite get the fact for some people whom I know to be selfish in a sense .

Why aren't you guys satisfied seeing me and him together ?

What wrong have I done ?

It's so exaggerated that some even asked him to let me go .

Am I that bad for him ?

Even if I was , do you have the rights to even judge this situation ?

Who's life are you controlling ? Mine or yours ?

I know , I get it . I'm not a good girl for god's sake .

But seriously , I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY .

Why must you guys be unhappy for who I am in love with ?

Why must you guys take it as something unconsiderable ?

We both love each other , and we think it's very cruel of you to not support us .

We're pals , buddies , friends , companions .

Through thick and thin , but never let any party down .

I really hope things could be better , because I just want you back as someone I can count on .

You know who you are . If you're clueless , then time will tell everything .

Whatever the case , my babygirls really made my day today .

We had a lot of hilarious moments and seriously , I laughed more than I ever could .

Heartiest thanks to Darlene , Dinah , Rabiatul .

I love you three to the infinity .

And I love the part where you girls sang those few songs to me .

LOVELOVELOVE ♥ IT .

OOOOOOHH , I love him a lot .

I'm sorry for my last minute attitude .

I just found out that i'm having my menses .

PMS dude , and I apologise for that .

See you tomorrow love ♥

It's been a long time since I updated my blog .

Been busy with outings and problems .

Come to think of it , I'm unsure of whether I could hold on any longer .

Yes , people have been babbling in my ears to just stay strong .

And my eardrums are prone to those advices .

You guys are not facing what I'm facing now , so don't think that it's

as easy as ABC okay ?

And i'm ready for a fight with my neighbour .

You call my mum a slut ? Well let's see who's going to be the slut okay ?

I swear to God that you're going to pay for what you have said .

And I hate it when my mum tries to seal her agony by smiling .

She doesn't want to show me that she's going through something bad .

Come on mom , you're bad at acting .

You can't lie with your eyes .

And i'm thankful enough that you're willing to share with me what had happened to you yesterday . At least I know that i'm someone important that needs to know .

Don't worry , i'll fight for your rights .

I love you , and that's all that matters .

Ooooh , meeting my boyfriend soon .

Need to wake him up at 4pm . Hope he doesn't silent his phone .

He always do that so that no one wakes him up .

Love him to bits and pieces .

Currently 6.50am and i just got back from North Plaza R.O.C

Well , went to meet Zai there just to keep things updated .

Let's recall about my day previously .

Woke up in the afternoon and slacked at home till 8pm , well around there .

Called up Jeremiah and planned to meet at that time , and of course i was late .

Slacked with Icah , Danny , Riko , Jeremiah , Kambing , Mabok , Riko , Epul , Ahken , Dino

Rabiatul , Huzair , Haikal , Talib , Aim , Nitro . But it was all only for a while .

CID and police officers are really into their patrolling duties , so we decided to get out of trouble and just split up . It was just too unreasonable for me .

At around 10pm , it ended up with only Talib and Jeremiah and myself .

We headed to Man Fut Tong soccer court and slacked .

Neo appeared few minutes later .

Then he went home and the three of us proceeded to block 755 basketball court .

Unknowingly , we saw a rather sick in the brain girl sitting on her own at a nearby pondok .

She was wearing a white colored pyjamas and was holding on to her handphone .

She blasted her songs and danced to the music .

She even talked to the basketball pole .

A stressed girl , or maybe escaped from IMH ? I have no freaking idea . *laughs*

Then Talib had to leave .

Jeremiah and i called up Faris and we then slacked at his crib , more safer than outside .

.............

When Faris and Jeremiah was asleep at the crib , i decided to leave ,

since KechyqSanchi was already under the block waiting for me .

Slacked with him and his friends till i got back home .

Well , life has been a bore , and to think of it , i prefer ending it .

Suffocation , that's the only word that can describe my life now .

Good morning bloggers .

It's currently 10.26am and i'm still not asleep yet . hahaha .

Now hanging out with my friends at my friend's crib .

I'm deciding to spend most of my time with my loved ones before i leave to somewhere .

Will update soon okay ?

But literally , i hope nothing unwanted happens .

I just don't want to leave my family , especially my mother .

Haishh , it's utterly depressing to even think about it .

And Jeremiah ,

thank you for being there throughout my ups and downs .

U have been there when i needed you , when everyone else simply ignored me .

You are still willing to be my friend even though i've made a mistake , and you know what .

We've been friends for four years now , and i hope it will continue further .

I regret for being such a selfish friend before , for criticising you and ignoring you .

I just realised what friends really are .

I love you Jeremiah Benjamin Matthews , as a friend okay ? hahahahahaha .

I have nothing else to update .

Takecare my wonderful friends .

Good Morning People .

It's currently 6.15am and finally my body is fully charged after 3 days of not sleeping .

And i'm just waiting for my manager to call me so that i can start work already .

But i don't know if i want to work there or not .

Haishh , nevermind . Let's think about that later shall we ?

It's been a long time since i met my girlfriends , since i've only been seeing Dinah and Rabiatul .

It's been a great week though .

And yesterday was an interesting day with Apit , Jeremiah and the rest .

Haha , can't elaborate here also .

Seriously , i don't know what to update already . Macam no life gituk .

Korang kalau nak jumpe aku , kol rumah jek la . Korang tau aku takde hp kan ?

Don't expect me to call everytime .

And if my mother ckp im sleeping , it's just because i close the door .

Say to my mum that mar suroh kejot .

Kalau tak forever la my mum ckp aku tido . hahaha .

Leceh , i know . ♥

Kepale aku ngah trip rabak uhhh .

Denga suare tibe2 padahal takde suare .

Nampak orang jalan at last takde orang in the first place pon .

And i heard mummy talking to me , i turned around , no one's there .

Haishh , and now there's monkey sounds drumming in my ears !

What is wrong with me ????

Featuring Safiah and Darlene .

Picture taken during our grandlink outing .

Well , currently it's 10.34am and i'm at Dinah's crib .

Just finished watching the show Om Shanti Om .

Didn't know that the catchy song belonged to a rather tragic story .

What an irony i suggest ?

Been coughing a lot these days .

But nevermind that ,

I'm contented with myself for holding a good record while under my 6 months counselling .

Insyaallah , everything will end in two months time , and i can't wait for that .

Not to mention , Dinah is snoring like a pig ! ♥ *laughs*

Me and Zuffrie planned to hangout today , and i should call him in like 2 hours time .

It's been a long time right Zuffrie ? We'll keep life updated later . haha .

Seriously , i don't know what to post anymore .

I'm clueless , effing clueless .

But maybe i should end this post and dedicate this to all my friends who are

facing minor or major or any problems in relationship terms .

Be strong , cause you've got a long way to go my dears .

God chose you guys to face this , as a challenge to prove that you're strong .

I've went through my rocky road , and mind me , the word easy doesn't exist .

Pray hard and believe in fate . Help will arrive , it's how you bring everything together .

What matters is a sincere and pure heart , and that leads to true love .